caught in the in-between

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I've always been caught in the in-between of envisioning everything for myself. Living the socially acceptable life of having a family, settling down with a house; but I'm currently working towards the complete opposite of that. Doing exactly what I think is acceptable for my life and what truly draws me to the point of beautiful madness.

"Am I reaching for the stars or marrying madness?" - from my poetry book, A seashell shaped home.

I can admit there are times it feels like I don't know what I want, what I'm doing or where I'm even going with all this. But I embrace the flow state. I embrace trust in knowing my higher self and invisible protectors and spirit guides are constantly working for me to get me to the right place. 

I have never actually gone without anything, i've always had what I need. Sometimes it can be super scary taking huge leaps of faith in self for the sake of something better, something more. It can get pretty crazy when you're consistently paving your own path. 

I truly couldn't have it any other way, It's imbedded in my bones. The perfect balance of chaos and harmony. Health and partying. Creating and being inspired when I'm in a drought period. 

I hope eventually I'll obtain both in a way that feels right to me but career and passion first, always. 

livelivelivelivelivelive.

lovelovelovelovelove.