Listen

 Listen... 

Since I was little I've always seen the best in the "underdog" and everyone loves an underdog come up. But, it's also been slightly harmful to me. I've taken on people pleasing roles, become the mother, the healer, the "crazy" girlfriend who cares too much. It's all quite exhausting to give so much energy and hope to the wrong people, especially if they are not willing to do the work/see what you see.

 I know that growth/healing/addictions/habits are not a linear thing and not something that can just change over night. I do think we eventually make it from A to B and so on. Everyone's starting point to finishing point is going to look different than yours. The in-betweens will also look different. That is the beauty that I can also see. 

Allow people to be who they are. Allow them the room to show up authentically and be willing to witness what they are showing you, to decide if it is something that you really think is worth it. I've never gotten anywhere whenever I'm trying to control an outcome, situation or narrative. 

It can be really hurtful/harmful when people choose not to see that or understand that we are all here for different reasons, some of us have yet to even discover. I pray that we all do. I believe that we all do. We play many roles to be catalysts. 

There is no need to feel guilt or shame unless you are intentionally harming someone. I can be standing up for myself when someone has blatantly disrespected me and still feel bad for saying something to them. That needs to stop. (this is a reminder to stand up for yourself, regardless of what may come after). 

As usual I rambling on about things that do indeed matter and I love my word vomit that is often sparked by something I've just experienced or have learned through experience. I always say that I have gone through everything at least once and I am severely emotionally intelligent. I wouldn't have it any other way. I deeply appreciate any human that is emotionally intelligent and uses it for the greater good. 

Have a good day :-)