managing the feels

I know damn well I am not the only person who feels like a lot is crashing and burning around them and it can be frustrating. As much as I've tried to convince myself that I don't like feeling sadness or suffering, I'm really queen of that shit. I normally over indulge in my feelings for way too long, start overthinking every possible thing which then leads me to the thinking about x-y-and-z. It is and it's not productive for me. When the overthinking is not productive it's led to a lot of dark outcomes. 

FEELINGS, Whether we are feeling them way too hard, in a more observant manner or avoiding heavily.... we all obviously have them. Some people have known how to manage their feelings a lot longer than others. I am happy for those people. truly. Other people have no idea how to just allow themselves to feel the emotion but don't become it, observe it.

I'm not ashamed to admit that being able to properly manage my feelings is relatively new. When I talk about managing feelings, I think of coping in productive and healthy ways that don't end up taking me down unnecessary dark roads. Why have I been signing myself up for extra darkness? There's a lot that can be learned in darkness, trust me, I've experienced everything once at this point. *sinister laugh* 

Do I have any regrets? Barely any, because my lust for extra darkness has led me to who I am currently. Someone who is so tired of breaking my own heart, choosing to feel alienated etc etc... Understanding that I have the power to choose how I feel about things has set me completely free. To know that I have the power to transmute icky feelings into something that is more productive for my wellbeing has set me free. 

Things that help me cope when I'm in a funk:

bowling

writing

singing

learning something new

blasting music

dancing

going for a walk

going to the park

affirmations

gym

setting intentions

tea

self care > doing my nails, skincare, changing up my look

taking a long shower

starting a new project

volunteering

giving something to a stranger

biking

thrifting

smiling at people

nature, nature, nature

slowing down and becoming more present in the moment

finding joy in the simplest of things 

holding onto kindness

spreading kindness

cooking